"Art" & "Artist"

Dream by JW Harrington

in the studio of my friend young Alice,

born of painter and poet.

I admired her deeply.

She encouraged my work.

 

Her widowed mother

showed us two pieces,

red background, black or blue detail:

on one, rough figures in black, streaked with red,

and a few clearly drawn distractions;

on one, a cerulean circle, bold and smooth.

 

The difference, she said, was suggestion, the basis of art.

the roughness and red obscured and denied; 

the blue-on-red suggested colors unseen.

 

She gave us principles – very rare for her:

paint, don't record.

the act of painting must be primary

through visible brushstrokes - even those created by artifice.

Form is key, the major virtue of the work.

Represent by suggestion.

Together we breathed only one word, how.

Deep breath.

 

Rapidfire:

we know circle, we know sky, sun -- don't draw

do we need circle, or can it be transformed,

folded on itself, present as shadow, present as void?

overpainted, incomplete? 

ovoid imperfection?

Embarrassed by such explicit wordrain, 

she fell Silent. 

 

color is the gift, the bonus

color suggests things not drawn

color is emotion

color is beautiful.

 

It is a striking afternoon, I must go.

We paused by the sink:

she touched each of us, ran fingers thru gloss-black hair,

held a small mirror angled toward the ceiling and said

Henry, I'd like a special gift;  nevermind though, I'll pick it up.

Turned to us effusively -- happy thanksgiving.

Mother flinched;

they planned to spend thanksgiving together.

No, thanks can be more thoughtful alone.

I’ll go get my treat, this gorgeous afternoon.

 

Let's try that again... by JW Harrington

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This joyous image is from exactly a year ago, when I had completed all commitments of my professorial life and officially retired.

What an exciting moment! I faced that milestone with optimism, despite the horrors of COVID-19, murders at the hands of those who protect some and accost others, and daily (no, hourly — remember?) assaults on democratic institutions. I tried to portray that clash of personal and public circumstances by mimicking the colors above in a painting titled Superimposition: Retiring the Purple and Gold.

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As planned, I returned to the (virtual) classroom this Spring — a way of “phasing” my retirement. TODAY, that phase is over. Most people I know are successfully vaccinated, and I’ve seen people in person! A few state-sanctioned murderers have been called out. We have at least a temporary reprieve from hourly, widely publicized assaults on political decency. I’m ready to try this retirement status again, in a new context:

Control? (Moving into action) by JW Harrington

Life has no “purpose,” it just is.  Linear intellect and instrumentalism are tiny, tiny portions of what is and what can be observed.  “My” “life” is so important to me because it’s all I’ve been aware of – but it’s a tiny portion of what exists. 

 

First exercise: 

1)    Stretch each of my major muscles.

2)    Stand;  using a wall as little as possible, begin to teach my muscles how to support my body on one foot.

3)    Stand on both feet;  dim the lights.  Close my eyes;  breathe.  After a bit, imagine that I’m dead.  “I” am gone, kaput, a memory in a few people’s minds, but not in my own.  What remains?  A great deal, and what certainly is gone are all my concerns.  (Those concerns were not silly or trivial – when there was an “I” to protect, they made “sense.”  But without an “I,”…)

This was surprisingly successful, though I couldn’t keep it going for very long.

Control? (Day 3) by JW Harrington

I’ve spent much of the past three days reading Michael Pollan’s 2019 book How to Change Your Mind.  I’m not a book critic, so I won’t rehearse its strong and weak aspects.  Nor will I try to encapsulate it – rather, here’s what I’m taking from it, even if some of this was not in the book.

 

Most successfully functioning adults have honed a strong ego that dominates our consciousness and actions.  We have things to accomplish, so we seek to use our prior experiences to simplify, categorize, and objectify situations, cause/effect, objects, people, and even our feelings.  Our frustrations, tensions, and fear of death stem in part from our understanding that we as individuals are: 

·  the only way we can understand and be in the world (“I don’t perceive it, so it’s not there.”)

·  rational, logical, and efficient

·  in control of cause and effect.

 

            What I’ll call pyscho-active substances (“drugs” implies manufacture, but some of the substances are easily ingested from nature) numb the parts of the brain that control ego (the sense of self) and allow more parts of the brain to come to the fore and to interact with one another.  What most “trips” have in common:

·  the destruction of the sense of individual existence, separate from other things, life forms, and people;

·  recognition that existence is very much possible without a “self”;

·  much heightened awareness of everything that surrounds us:  light, music, memory, objects, people, life forms -- experienced as if for the first time;

·  connection among these things – so that light may become music, music becomes life forms, memory becomes objects, life forms become music – and allowing changes in any of these things to affect the awareness and perception of any of the other things.

 

            As a result, many people experience a strong sense that:

·  everything is connected;

·  one’s self and one’s body are shells that get in the way of recognizing these connections;

·  stripped of ego and concerns for one’s body, one becomes comfortable with and even supported by these connections, recognizing that memories are real and existence (but not of the self) continues before “birth” and after “death” of the self.

 

            These experiences/recognitions explain the effects of these treatments:  seeing everyday things as if for the first time (rather than relying on a memorized checklist: “trees,” “rain clouds,” “John”);  the outpouring of support and empathy (love) that subjects feel during and after the experience;  reducing the existential dread of death.  The opening of connections among senses and experiences allows some people to break free of recurrent fears or well-honed habits like addiction.

            Similar (but usually less strong) responses result from affecting the brain through Buddhist training, meditation, or rhythmic hyperventilation.  This gives me the tiniest bit of insight into the practice of meditation.