Ahh – I’m undertaking something new. I’ve moved materials and food into an underused room in our house, and will sequester myself for three full days – I’ll have a bed, bathroom, phone, and computer, but no caffeine nor alcohol, and no commitments to do anything at any time. (I realize that some folks have faced this for months now, and that others could never do this because of childcare or eldercare requirements.)
My main task is to try to figure out how to need less of a sense of control – maybe figure out why control is so important to me. Less control would make me less “high-strung,” would reduce my (I think normal) fear of death, and would probably help my art work.